I
worked 8 am - 4 pm today... I got to play "security" today with the
camera equipment in the office and file a police report for Stanley
"Dirty Kurty" Kurtis and [SOMETHING] Willis. I didn't catch the second
guys name, but they jerks stole alcohol from CVS 3 times this week...
We call and play the tape for the police, and they knew who they were
right off. Jack-ASSES!! Oh well... Guess they won't shop CVS anymore,
and if they do - - - I'll be on them like super glue. And when they ask
why I'm following them, I'll be like "Because you're not getting any
free liquor today!" Today wasn't too shabby! Quick fun... YESTERDAY,
WAS THE DAY FOR MORONS! Woah... I never knew how stupid people could be
[Well, I did - - - But I was hoping the "real" stupid people wouldn't
be here... WRONG!] North Vernon, Indiana is the place to be for a "freak show" - - - LOL... Oh well, I'm out. Later days - - - Better lays!



<3 and hugs

Sitting
at my house is a guy that just won't give up... That's right. Chad
wants to be with me. I guess he gets turned on by me being a bitch to
him. Whatever... We talked on the phone forever the other day about me
not knowing what I want and I want to focus on my son and my life right
now [the polite way of me telling him I don't want to be with him]. But
whatever... Anyways, CVS still sucks!! Amanda doesn't really bother me
as much now, Kathy is still an annoying stressful gossip queen, and I'm
still here [surviving this fucked up world]. LOVELY! Well, I'm out. Later days - - - Better lays!!

I
effing hate CVS! I went in at 6 AM [truck today] and I was suppose to
get off at 12:30. I wasn't going to take a break, but since I was
hungry - - - I ask to take one... And my bitch manager sent me home
early, so I got off at 11:15. I don't effing care, though. Everyone was
bitchy today, so I was bitchy right back [In their face fuck offs]. As
soon as Wal-Greens comes in, I'm putting in an application. I'm so over
trying to do everything by myself because other people can't do their
jobs. Anyways, I went to my friends' concert Sunday night. It was effing awesome! I'm so inlove with the band Eyes Caught Fire.
Everyone should check 'em out. I lost my friends, so I hung out with
the drummer of ECF. He was awesome; I think he kind of liked me because
he was all putting his arm around me and stuff... Hee... And he wasn't
bad looking either. Also, Tragedies Aside and Playing With Matches
were there. - - - Chad stayed at the appartment with me Sunday night,
and we uh... yeah you know... And it was REALLY good!! Brady's getting
really big now... Aww... I love him so much. Blah... That's about it...
So, I think I'm going to e-mail Dickie and Rico pictures from the
concert, get off here, and go home. Later days, play'as!

Scooter Scudieri
is awesome; ya'll check him out. Well, Brady and I signed the lease for
the appartment. My dad moved some stuff in while we took a nap. We're
ate Wendy's for lunch, talked to Chad, moved some stuff in with my
sister and ate some Wendy's at the appartment. Now, we're at home...
Think we're gonna take a walk [I'm tired - - - And still got alot of
stuff to move... tomorrow though]. I'm out, for now. Later days!

I've
been up since 4:30 this morning... "The early bird catches the worm" -
- - Or my son just wanted to get up... LOL. Chad called me at 4:45 and
I talked to him for a lil' bit. I decided to walk Brady down the road
[with hopes of him going back to sleep]. That didn't happen. We walked
by Chad outside, so we stopped. He kissed me, and it was really good.
Then, he kissed me again, and we left. Grr... I really like him; I
do... I just don't think I can be with a guy who has feelings for some
other girl. Anyways, Brady and I have been packing up stuff for
tomorrow [We move into the apartment - - - Woot]. We took a lil' break
to watch The Jungle Book [for the 5 time today, already]. We are going
to get back to it. Then, I have to work at 4 PM until 10... [Yeeehaw].
I'm out. Later days!

<3

Chad
called me today... This morning when he got off work at 4:45. It's a
good thing, too because I had to work at 6 [Stupid truck day]. Oh well,
I only had to work for 6 1/2 hours today... So, not so bad... But back
to Chad - - - Yeah, he told me he missed me. Actually, he said he was
attached to me and inlove w/ Ashley... Isn't that sweet?! What should I
do? I really like him, but I don't want to be with someone that is
inlove with someone else. Oh well, I'm out... Later days!

It's
so wierd how you can miss someone so much and only know them for a
week. I have "On Second Thought" by Abreaction stuck in my head. Grr...
I miss Chad, work sucks, Brady's rotten, and that's about... So, I'm
out. Later days!

Today
was alright. Amanda didn't annoy me too bad. I closed with Melanie
tonight, and we were dead. I missed Chad all day, today. Oh well, I
wish him well [even if it's not with me]. I'm so tired, but I'm not
sleepy. I think I'm gonna jet off here and listen to Jakalope and play on the computer for a bit... Then, I'm gonna pack up stuff for the apartment... Woot! I'm out. Later days!

***Ouch***
[Just pulled another dagger out of my heart]. Chad just told me that
he's still inlove with Ashley [His baby's mom] and wants to start a
family with her, but he wants to be with me. I told him that he should
follow his heart and talk to her about how she feels. Then, he says
"What if it doesn't work out with Ashley, and you'll find someone
else?" I told him that if I'm dating someone else and if it doesn't
work out with Ashley, he'll find someone else. Chad's a really nice
guy, and he deserves to be happy [Even if it means shattering my heart
into a million pieces]. Besides if it doesn't work out with her, maybe
I will still be single. After-all, I was single since March until I
just met Chad. The only guy that wasn't in it for the sex [because we
didn't have any] was really nice and treated me good... And he was able
to mend my broken heart even deeper. How wonderful is that?! I told myself I
wasn't going to get too excited over good things coming into my life
because they'll just go away... Now, what do ya kow?! I'm single again.
At least, I still have an amazing God and a wonderful son. But it still
hurts, ya know?! Having someone there to hold you and talk to - - -
Aww... I guess I'm just not mean to fall inlove with an amazing nice
guy. Grr - - - I'm getting off here.

Just me being emo...

Let me open up and make it easier for you to stab my heart...

Work
sucked yesterday. I had to work with Trista and Katie... OMG! They
talked in the office the whole night. I hate having to do all the work
myself. I know I'm fast, but it's just ridiculious. I talked to Lee on
my break and told him about the apartment. We talked amongst other
things, too... LOL. He's funny. Hmm... I got to see Chad last night
after work, so it wasn't too bad. He hugged me and told me he missed
me; he's so effing sweet. Then, he was telling about stuff my mom told
him when she stopped him on the sidewalk the other day. Grr... If she
has her way, I won't even have a nice boyfriend anymore. I just wish
she'd realize I'm not a baby anymore. I'm a big girl; I'm a woman. I
have a child. I can take care of myself; she doesn't realize how strong
I actually. I'm not like most girls; I can defend myself. But hey
whatever, I'm off here... I'm really tired! Later days!