Yesterday,
I worked from 1 PM - 10 PM... It sucked like usually. Amanda annoyed me
[But what night doesn't she annoy me]. Chris Jackson came in to buy
some beer, and he was totally hitting on me. It was funny because I was
like 'whatever' [... Eewww...] I was putting out some add merchandise
and filling the liquor shelves, and this guy ask me what the caps on
the liquor bottles were for. I told him they were to help reduce theft
in our liquor department. He says "I bet most of 'those people' are
mexicans, aren't they?" I was like "Well actually, most of 'those
people' are white guys." <--- I said that as I watched him pull the
caps of the bottles. He was like "Oh, you're probably dating one of
those guys." I was like "Actually if you really most know, I am." It
was quite humerous. Blah... After work, I went over to my grandpa's
house and watch the news about Hurricane Katrina. My grandpa was making
fun of some really big lady on there. He's so mean, but he's funny. I
love my grandpa. I went over to Chad's about 11 PM. We sat on the couch
and cuddled and talked. It was sweet. I even told him about the guy
with the liquor caps, and he left. Chad looked at me on the couch and
told me I was beautiful. I was like "Yeah whatever". Then, he said it
again and kissed me. We cuddled some more and made out. Now, I'm
home... And I have to work 1 - 10 PM today... [Yeah] - - - So, I'm
gonna put some clothes in the washer, talked to Chad on my cell for a bit, and go to bed. Later days!

Woah...
I didn't feel very well at all, today. I woke up puking, worked for 5
hours, came home and took a nap, took a shower, puked some more, went
to Justin's house, got really stoned, and now I'm sitting here blahing
on the computer. I don't even know what I'm talking about, but hey
whatever... I feel really good right now. Where's Chad when I need him?
- - - Heehee... He always has to work, like me. I feel so good right
now that my eye doesn't even hurt anymore [from where Trista dropped
the Halloween sign in my eye] and I don't feel like puking and my head
doens't hurt so bad. "wooo... I feel good [so good]"... hehe. Woah...
That was so good stuff, and I really wish Chad was here. Even if he
would suck in bad, I wouldn't notice it right now [because right now
bad sex would be good sex!]. Man - I really don't know what's going on
right now [just know that it feels really good], so I think
I'm going to get off here and enjoy the buzz... Later days!

I
found some cool layouts - - -  [FaBuLOuS]! Yeah... I really like
this one. I liked my layout before, too [So, it was a touch one between
which one I wanted to use]. Oh well, Chad apologized for being an ass
to me. I know he's really stressed out with Vaden and working all the
time [So, I just let it go]. I got to see him today for about 20
minutes. He came over before he had to go to work. Then, he called me
and said he wanted to hear my voice before he had to clock in [Aww...
he's so super sweet]. He thought he'd surprise me this morning. He came
over at like 4:30 in the morning. I heard that knock at the door and
about pissed my pants [It was v. sweet and I missed him anyways].
Bleh... I move into the apartment next
week [Sept. 15th]. I'm so excited... But I won't have internet for
awhile, so I probably won't be updating Xanga as much. I'll survive
though. I'm also getting my cell turned off for awhile and getting a
land line [That'll saving me up to 70 bucks]. Grr... I'm so excited; I
can't wait [Just me and my lil' man]. I'm proud of myself; I deserve
every good thing that's coming my way these days. Sorry if that sounds
concided, but it's true. It seems like I work my ass off and never get
anything good out of it. FINALLY, it feels like I'm actually accompany
some good things. I took Brady for a walk around 9:00 PM and talked to
my best friend, April. Chad called me on his first break [I think I can
see myself falling inlove with him]. That's so wierd! I never felt that
with Donald or Wes [the asshole and the pyscho]. And with Lee, we were
more "fuck buddies". I would've liked to be more with him, but I know
that he doesn't feel he same way about me as I do about him. Oh well, I
posted some updated pictures on here...
I'm outtie here, so enjoy. Later days!


Chapstick or Lipgloss?


My hair is getting long, and I love it.

Not
too bad of a day, yesterday... I decided not to go to the showing and
funeral. I didn't feel well this morning, and Brady was still sick. I
finally got him to eat a little bit. He's a little better now. I feel
better, too. [I get to call Chad on his 2nd break soon]. I like having
a sweet boyfriend. I have a wonderful son, a sweet boyfriend, and one
amazing God... What more could a girl ask for?! Things seem to be
turning around in my life... Now, I know that if I get too happy, it's
all going to crash infront of my face - So, I'm just not going to go
that route. Anyways, I just got done watching Sweet Home Alabama; I
LOVE THAT MOVIE! It's so awesome and very sweet. I think I'm going to
get off here though and call my V. SWEET boyfriend. Later days!

I miss Chad!! In one more hour, I get to call him... YEE!! He's so sweet; he's a really good cuddler, too.

Chad
called me at 2:30 this morning, and I told him about Jeremy... He said
"You be honest with me, and I'll be honest with you."
He came over to see me at 2 PM and left at 4 PM because he has to get
ready for work at 5:30. Aww... I'm glad I have such a nice boyfriend
[and not an asshole who cheats or acts psycho]. I'm off here now. Later
days!

Hmm...
Chad and I were texting back and forth, so I went for a walk and called
him. As we were talking, Jeremy drove by... So, I'm talking to Chad on
my cell and took a couple laps around the town w/ Jeremy. Jeremy's all
telling about how his girlfriend wanted him to stay the night, and he
left when she fell asleep. Come to find out, Jeremy and Chad work
together. Bleh... I think Chad got mad because he hung up. We get to
Jeremy's house, and Chad calls me back. I'm talking to him outside of
the house, and he had to go back to work, so he told me to call him
back at 2:30 AM... I might be asleep by then, but who knows [It's
already 1:22 now]. So, I go back into the house, and Jeremy pulls me
over to lay down beside him. Then, he has his hand around my waist,
then up my shirt [on my boob]... Then, he kisses me.So, I got up and
was like "Hey you got a girlfriend, and you're not cheating on her."
Then, I left... OMG!! Jeremy just doesn't get it. I don't want to date
him, and he thinks that if he keeps trying to get with me... I will
eventally give in... But NO - - - Not going to happen. Especially, now
that I met Chad. So, heres the reason for the update of not knowing
what to do... Should I tell Chad, or should I pretend like it never
happened? I don't want to cause trouble between Jeremy and his
girlfriend, and I like Chad. I just got off the phone with Bruce, and
he thinks I should tell Chad [For the right thing to do]. I know it's
the right thing to do, but still... I like Chad, and I wanna be with
him. So, a part of me wants to do the right thing, and a part of me
doesn't. Oh yeah, and Jeremy lives right across the
road from him... Aww - - - Grrr... What's a girl to do? Oh well, I'm
going to bed.

Hmm...
Tryin' to find things to do until 12:30 AM [Waitin' to call Chad on his
2nd break]. He called me about an hour ago on his first break. I saw
him for "split" minute when he drive down the rode on his way to work,
long enough to say "Keep your cell phone on and I'll call you on my
break". This week our schedules suck because I have a showing to go to
in Kentucky tomorrow and a funeral Wednesday night, so that's 2 days I
won't be able to see him. Thursday night he works, so I might get to
see him in that morning for a little bit before work... Other than
that, I won't get to see him until Friday night
Oh well, time permits and I still have Brady's company. Brady didn't
like Chad at first because when Chad would kiss me or hold my hand,
Brady thought he was hurting me. So, he'd either try to beat him up or
start crying. He likes Chad now because Chad was looking for  "el
luna" [the moon] with him. Brady LOVES the moon and stars, so it's fun
just sit outside and walk at night with him. He's getting so big; I
love him so much. I like Chad. He's really sweet, but the thing that
drives me absolutely crazy about him is he's really good with Brady.
That right there gives him a + + + and then some... etc. Also, it makes
him better than my last two boyfriends [the cheater and the psycho] and
the psycho geek I went one date with. I'm glad God let me find a good guy.
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Oh yeah, I decided that if I ever have another little boy, I want to
name him Jonah. I LOVE that name! It's biblical and a cute boy's name.
I still have my little girl's name [Whenever I have one - - - NOT now
or anytime soon... It's just I'm a girl and plan stuff like that]. Only
a few people know my girl's name, too... It's a secret... No-one most
know it. It's unique, and I made it up... So - No one can still it... Hehe!!
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Anyways, I was checking out some guy's
xanga today about "Judgement day", and it really got me thinking. I
want to be the best christian person I can be because I when it comes
time for my day, I want God smile back at me in pride. Okay... I'm
going to stop babbling now and find something else to do while I'm
waiting around for a couple more hours. So,  LaTEr dAyS!

I
just got back from watching House of Flying Daggers with Chad... MAN -
He's a really GOOD kisser!! I mean, that movie was really good...
hehe!! Seriously, it was a good movie. Except, I hated the ending.
Grr... Ya'll are gonna have to watch it!!!!!

Work sucked yesterday... Amanda drive me crazy. I wish she'd use her
brain sometimes; it pisses me off when she's stupid in the photo lab. I
don't feel like losing my job of stupid ass people who won't use their
effing heads. I found out this guy, Luke Johnson, I went to school with
was killed in a car wreck Saturday night; Matt York's dad told me about
it today when he came into CVS. Craziness... You never know how short
life can be until it's over [Makes me think of Aaron's song "Tomorrow" - - - "Tomorrow may never come; today is the day for salvation!"]. Blah... I talked to Lee last night... He makes me laugh; I want him SO BAD!! Oh well, I'm out... Later days - Better lays!



Here's Chad Allen Hanley [Upclose and personal]:

OMG!
Work sucked today. I had to work w/ Trista and Michelle. All they ever
do is talk when they work together, and they don't know what "team
work" means. So, when I work with them, I'm basically I'm on my own; It
suckes trying to run a store by yourself [Especially when you work 10
hours]. Oh well, I did get to take 2 breaks today, and I talked to Lee
on my 2nd break... The sound of his voice still gets to me [He just
sounds WAY TOO DAMN sexy- Make me go GRR...RoaR!!-hee]. I'm home now, and I think I'm going to bed because I have to work 8 AM - 4 PM tomorrow... OH BOY!! I hate CVS! Later days!