I've walked this road before
I don't know why I want to go back
I thought I finally got you off my mind
I thought I finally forgot the time

I can't hate you

I don't know why


Everytime I try

You make me think of possiblities


Endless possiblities

I desperately want you

You're everything I want

You're everything I need

My heart is broken

You're the only one who can mend the pieces.

You're the only one [You're the only one]

You're the only one who can mend the pieces of this broken heart.

Yup... How 'bout it. I wanna learn to play meh acou gee-tar [Instead of pretending like I know how to play]. I wanna be able to pick up my gee-tar and start playing my songs. Meh songs are saweet [Kind of emo but cool].  

I've
done it for over 2 years [and not to mention my pregnancy] by myself!!
I know how to take care of my son. I went to get my prescription filled
at CVS today, and Lois [the dumbass old lady] was there. We were
getting ready to leave when Brady got sick. Lois was like "I don't
think you should take him. It's not a good idea." I was like "Listen
here you dumb bitch! Why do you think I'm sick because I've been home
with, and I have an infected kidney... So, I'm dying to know how the
hell you want me to not take him out to get my prescriptions filled
because he can't stay home by himself." By this time he's all cleaned
up and as I walk outside, I'm like "By the way I don't need anyone
telling me how to raise or take care of my son because I've done it for
over 2 fucking years!" Grr... She frustrates me so bad.

Trista
gave me her hours today, so I worked her 8-4. I had to do the dental
planogram all day. It sucked, but at least I only had to deal with a
few annoying customers. I got paid today, so I cashed it and paid bills
[Now I have 60 dollars to last me and Brady a week - For a couple days
anyways, since Lee's going to send me some money for Brady. I hate
taken his money, but I also never get it, so I don't feel bad for taken
it... Craziness! I don't even want his money; I just want him to be a
dad to his son and see him more than 6 times every 2 years. I want my
son to know his father.] Anyways, I spend 35 dollars at the grocery
store, so we got food now. Now, hopefully we eat it all before it
expires; Brady and I aren't big eaters [Oh well, at least we won't be a
couple of fatties. PLUS: We take our vitamins.] Bleh... Yah - So here's
my grocery store sickness. Brady
was with mamaw and papaw, and I went to the store with my sister, her
boyfriend and her boy [my buddy] Christian. I'm pushing Christian in
the cart because he got shots the other day, so he can go to
kindergarden in Aug. My sister comes up and she's like "Dude, that old
guy was totally checkin' out your butt!" I was like "Eewww... He's like
old like dad!" She's like "It's okay though; I won't kick ass since I
know him. He's a pretty nice guy." So, I was like "Well, you tell that
nice guy that I said thanks for the attention, but I don't want it."

- - - That's
it, kids. Okay, so it wasn't that exciting, but it's all I got for
today. Now, I'm going to go have me a Jose Cuervo Strawberry Margarita
shake.

Peace and <3

I figured while I was thinking about it, it was time for a xanga update... All I ever do is Work, take care of my son, and mess with MYSPACE... It's a crazy life. I developed pictures of a really small penis last night... LOL. I looked at Amanda and said "Dude, if I was that guy I'd be a virgin for the rest of my life" - - - Then, I was like "Brady is bigger than that, and he's only 2"... LOL. Some guys are just not blessed in life. Oh well, I'm off here. We're watching Stanly & The Great Big Book of Everything.

Peace <3 and God Speed.

"Sour grapes eaten by parents leave a sour taste in the mouths of their children." Ezekiel 18:2

I was just sitting here thinking about my friend, Ben, and the last time I talked to him was 2 weeks after he left basic to head for Afganistan. It sucks when you have friends fighting over in a war, and you haven't heard anything in a year and 1/2. All you do is hope for the best. To the soldiers, I say you're always in prayers and never loose faith!!

God is glorious in many ways!!

Hello all!! All is well in my new appartment. Brady is getting so big; I can't believe how much he's changing everyday. It's crazy madness. My hours got cut at work really bad; it totally sucks. Everyone is down 10 hours then what they were at. I left my manager a note in the office today telling her I needed more hours. I doubt I'll get it this week since we are 7 hours over the hours that were giving to us. Grr... Think I just might have to get a 2nd job. It sucks being a single mom and trying to do everything yourself. The thing is I can call Lee anytime and ask him for some money, and he'll give it to me. He's very helpful with Brady [When I ask]. I think I just might have to call him tomorrow before I go to work and tell him I need some money for Brady. Oh well, all will work out. I'm not in money bind right now, and I don't want to have to start worry about money. Bleh... Anyways, I'm out.

Peace <3 and God Speed  

Do I look smart?

Do I look hot?


Do I look like a freak?

Do I look sweet?

Do you wanna be me?

JIM VERRAROS - - - EVERYONE check this guy out; he's awesome.

I went to the eye doctor today - and I have to get glasses... YUCK!! Ewww... Dude what's up with that? I had perfect vision before I had Brady. Oh well, I got Brady now, and I wouldn't give him up for anything in the world. Blehh... Now, I'm off to watch Sex In The City.

Okay... I've decided I'm never working for anyone again. I work with a bunch of bitches. I traded Amanda hours for tomorrow so I can go to an eye appointment, and now I have to cancel the appointment because she doesn't want to close. CVS is eff'ed. If she didn't want to close, she could have said so... Not waiting until 8:50 PM to call me and say she didn't want to work. Grr... I just don't understand people. I'm sick of being nice, and it biting me in the ass.