One of those late shifts when you get home (obviously late) and you're too tired to sleep... So, I'm playing on the computer & then I'll probably starting cleaning, hoping to eventually pass out. That and I can't sleep while hearing my poor baby girl cough :'( She's so little and it's sadding, knowing she's all congested.

I'm thinking I'm going to take some online classes (perhaps perhaps), back to school I go.

Update.Update.Update.
Nothing to update. Life is blah... I'm still around, tryin' to live off of between 15-23 hours a week. It doesn't really get me anywhere since I have two kids & I can't get any help because the government is gay. So, I think I am going to through away 10 1/2 years at CVS and try to get a new job. For those of you who know me & know what I put up with there,  you understand. I'm sad cuz I really do like working at CVS & being apart of the team. We also have one hell of a district; our corporate guys are awesome! It's just the store I work at I can't get anywhere. I do everything at that place & I'm still the bitch; I want to be recognize for my hard work & skills.
Okay, that's it :'(

I have totally wrecked my credit because I am a nice person. I am so done helping out everyone else & not myself. Grr... I wish people would stop taking advantage of nice people.

Towards the end of June, I met this guy who is amazing, Steve. He has two boys who look up to their mother, like any child would. Even in the 5 hours that she sees them a week, she means so much too them. However, she is a unhumanly the most selfish person I've ever met & I wished she'd take her drug using self far away & forgot that she has kids because no child needs a mother like that. She is dating Steve's cousin, who duct taped the boys because they were being too loud when she was trying to sleep, she's in & out of jail, she has no job cuz she's a drug head (who no-one would hire).. I could go on, but I won't. My point is she should grow up & be a mother or just go away & have a good life away from the stuff that any child shouldn't have to be away.

Steve, I want to teach your boys what a mother really is & I love you.
Please, take me far away from here.

I will go where-ever you go; I'm happy to be anywhere with you.

It's Too Late by mii
Times have changed
and the distance still grows.
I miss; the way we once were;
butterflies fludder side to side.
I miss you when you're not here;
insanity rises when you're near.
I close my eyes;
I can't sleep.
Kiss me lips,
it's too late.
Forget your fears,
darling, I care.
I'm to loyal
for your love so royal,
rich and pure.
You say I have your heart,
but boy, I need more.

[Untitled] Dedicated to Brady & Adilynn by Mii
My babies grow
[each day],
I know.
Twinkling eyes,
wiggling toes,
little fingers,
kissable cheeks,
and huggable arms:
I love my babies so.
My babies grow,
[grow, grow, grow].

To Dream of Love by Mii
I've never met someone like you;
you're in my heart, baby, it's true.
It feels so wrong; it feels so right.
I want to be with you tonight.
I look outside
and watch the sky,
wish you were here as I close my eyes.
You're in my prayers
and on my mind,
baby, we just need a little more time.
I'm falling for you more fast than I know.
With you, I want to grow, grow, grow.
Hold me in your arms
and count the stars.
One day, we'll be free from this life of bars.
Me and you are gonna wake up tomorrow,
and we're gonna forget all our sorrow.
When you're with me, you'll never strain
because baby, you're gonna be my man.

Okie, the last text on here was a lil' rough, the "I need a new job" one. LOL...I don't hate CVS. I get so frustrated with that place: I have been there since I was 17, I can do anything that a supervisor does, even better, my math skills are phenomenal, and etc. Behold all my knowledge, I get fucked everytime because I don't kiss ass. I will never kiss ass in that place, so I guess I need to face reality that I will never be anyone in the lil' fucked up retail store of North Vernon.

Anyways, Brady will be turning 5 three days before Xmas; he's getting too big. Through he missed the cut off for kindergarden, he is in preschool now. I'm told how smart he is everyday. I'm thinking Yes, I work with my kids. LOL=] For real, he is tremendously smart. That's what scares me so bad about him going to school. I'm afraid they will try to teach him something he already knows & he will start acting up. Then, the fucked up teachers will say he needs medicine for behavior problems. Fuck all that. I'm not that kind of mom. It's not my fault if a teacher can't handle a child because they are smarter than them. If they say anything like that to me about my kid, I'll take him out & put him in a different school. I'm thinking private schools for my kids.
Set a set, Brady has a little girlfriend named Alex, "preschool love"; she is a pretty little girl though. He tells her she's beautiful & always lets her go first. It's so cute & sweet. My little man is going in the right direction.
My daughter, Adilynn, turned 1 this passed July, which makes her 16 1/2 months old. She's adorable, so little; she's only 19 lbs & 29 3/4 inches long. Adilynn is my little princess, and she'll let you know that. She's been do so many amazing things; I love watching her advance. As well as Brady, she is also very intelligent. For about 4 months now, she has been showing some major interest in the potty. I didn't expect it this early, but I won't hold her from it. The only problem with that is no-one makes pull-ups or panties small enought to fit her. She has no butt, and just now started wearing size 3 diapers. Size 2's are too small, and 3's are too big; she needs a 2 1/2...LOL. Oh well, she's little, but she's mine!!!
I love my babies so much;
They are my reason for putting up with CVS as long as I have.
Everything I do, I do for them.
My little man!!!
This is definitely mommy's boy, even though technically he's "mamaw's boy". If he's ever lost in a crowd of people, it won't be hard to spot his mom because he looks just like me.
My girly girl!!!

This right here is my "mommy baby", oh how she loves her mommy. If mommy's not around, everyone better just look out cuz she's hell on wheels. This is why she is always with me except for when I'm at work. Then, she goes to my parents house. After mommy, she loves her papaw [So, she works my mom over til my dad comes home].

I have a beautiful daughter, Adilynn Marie, who was born July 19th; she's perfect in every way. Brady is the best big brother; he loves her so much. This passed Sunday was my first day back to work since I had her. It was hard; I missed her terribly. I'm coping with it though. I wish I would've gone back to work sooner though because my dumba** boyfriend spent all my money and now I have no way of paying my rent (which is late). On another note, my sister has a car in my name and she hasn't paid a payment in 3 months. She totally lied to me about paying them. Now, I'm probably going to be getting sued. I have to come up w/ 600 dollars to make a payment on that stupid car and my rent. I'm so pissed off. I had AWESOME credit and now it's fuckin' ruined. My sister's in the hospital getting enduced (she should have her baby either around midnight or EARLY in the morning), so I know she's not going to be making the paying tomorrow like she's suppose to. On top of all that, my kids don't have insurance because the stupid DFC office is a fuckin' piss of BULLSH*T. I'm so over them d*ckin' around because none of the people in there know what the f*ck they're doing.

Grr...

Why does EVERYONE just want to screw me over?

I guess that's what I get for being such a nice person; I'm going to have to learn how to be a b*tch.

**********

Updated pictures of the viewers:

(Me getting enduced at 7am. I got drugged up at noon. I was having lots of back labor but no contractions, and I was dialated to 6 1/2 when I gott he hospital. After they finally broke my water, I was in labor for 2 hours and pushed for 30 minutes. I had her at 6:18pm. She was 7 lbs and 18.5 inches long (head - 34.5 cm); she was so tiny.

(My handsome lil' man)

(My beautiful baby girl) 

(My awesome kids, 3 1/2 years apart) 

(Brady's rotten side) 

(Adilynn at a few weeks old. Now, she can finally fit into her newborn clothes.)

Brady is growing like a weed; he's three now. Sometimes, I think he's a little bit to smart for his own good. He always has a way of bringing a smile to my face; I couldn't be any more proud of him.

CVS drama... I'm still there & there's still drama. Sometimes, I think my manager needs to sit back & think about people who come into an interview before she hires them.

I think that's it kids, you can check out my myspace if you get bored sometime. I usually update that like everyday. Although, my profile is set for private, you can send me a message.

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Adam is incredible; He is my envy of love!!!

<a href="http://www.myspace.com/sarie005" target="_blank"><img
src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v472/skatiedoodles/SteveIrwin.png"
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href="http://www.myspace.com/sarie005" target="_blank"><img
src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v472/skatiedoodles/Crikey.png"
border="0"><br><br><br>CAIRNS, Australia (AP) --
Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and
conservationist known as the ''Crocodile Hunter,'' was killed Monday by
a stingray while filming off the Great Barrier Reef. He was
44.<br><br>Irwin was at Batt Reef, off the remote coast of
northeastern Queensland state, shooting a segment for a series called
''Ocean's Deadliest'' when he swam too close to one of the animals,
which have a poisonous barb on their tails, his friend and colleague
John Stainton said.<br><br>''He came on top of the stingray
and the stingray's barb went up and into his chest and put a hole into
his heart,'' said Stainton, who was on board Irwin's boat at the
time.<br><br>Crew members aboard the boat, Croc One, called
emergency services in the nearest city, Cairns, and administered CPR as
they rushed the boat to nearby Low Isle to meet a rescue helicopter.
Medical staff pronounced Irwin dead when they arrived a short time
later, Stainton said.<br><br>Irwin was famous for his
enthusiasm for wildlife and his catchword ''Crikey!'' in his television
program ''Crocodile Hunter.'' First broadcast in Australia in 1992, the
program was picked up by the Discovery network, catapulting Irwin to
international celebrity.<br><br>He rode his image into a
feature film, 2002's ''The Crocodile Hunters: Collision Course'' and
developed the wildlife park that his parents opened, Australia Zoo,
into a major tourist attraction.<br><br>''The world has
lost a great wildlife icon, a passionate conservationist and one of the
proudest dads on the planet,'' Stainton told reporters in Cairns. ''He
died doing what he loved best and left this world in a happy and
peaceful state of mind. He would have said, 'Crocs
Rule!'''<br><br>Prime Minister John Howard, who hand-picked
Irwin to attend a gala barbecue to honor President Bush when he visited
in 2003, said he was ''shocked and distressed at Steve Irwin's sudden,
untimely and freakish death.''<br><br>''It's a huge loss to
Australia,'' Howard told reporters. ''He was a wonderful character. He
was a passionate environmentalist. He brought joy and entertainment and
excitement to millions of people.''<br><br>Irwin, who made
a trademark of hovering dangerously close to untethered crocodiles and
leaping on their backs, spoke in rapid-fire bursts with a thick
Australian accent and was almost never seen without his uniform of
khaki shorts and shirt and heavy boots.<br><br>Wild animal
expert Jack Hanna, who frequently appears on TV with his subjects,
offered praise for Irwin.<br><br>''Steve was one of these
guys, we thought of him as invincible,'' Hanna, director emeritus of
the Columbus (Ohio) Zoo and Aquarium, told ABC's ''Good Morning
America'' Monday.<br><br>''The guy was incredible. His
knowledge was incredible,'' Hanna said. ''Some people that are doing
this stuff are actors and that type of thing, but Steve was truly a
zoologist, so to speak, a person who knew what he was doing. Yes, he
did things a lot of people wouldn't do. I think he knew what he was
doing.''<br><br>Irwin's ebullience was infectious and
Australian officials sought him out for photo opportunities and to
promote Australia internationally.<br><br>His public image
was dented, however, in 2004 when he caused an uproar by holding his
infant son in one arm while feeding large crocodiles inside a zoo pen.
Irwin claimed at the time there was no danger to the child, and
authorities declined to charge Irwin with violating safety
regulations.<br><br>Later that year, he was accused of
getting too close to penguins, a seal and humpback whales in Antarctica
while making a documentary. Irwin denied any wrongdoing, and an
Australian Environment Department investigation recommended no action
be taken against him.<br><br>Stingrays have a serrated,
toxin-loaded barb, or spine, on the top of their tail. The barb, which
can be up to 10 inches long, flexes if a ray is frightened. Stings
usually occur to people when they step on or swim too close to a ray
and can be excruciatingly painful but are rarely fatal, said University
of Queensland marine neuroscientist Shaun
Collin.<br><br>Collin said he suspected Irwin died because
the barb pierced under his ribcage and directly into his
heart.<br><br>''It was extraordinarily bad luck. It's not
easy to get spined by a stingray and to be killed by one is very
rare,'' Collin said.<br><br>News of Irwin's death spread
quickly, and tributes flowed from all quarters of
society.<br><br>At Australia Zoo at Beerwah, south
Queensland, floral tributes were dropped at the entrance, where a huge
fake crocodile gapes. Drivers honked their horns as they
passed.<br><br>''Steve, from all God's creatures, thank
you. Rest in peace,'' was written on a card with a bouquet of native
flowers.<br><br>''We're all very shocked. I don't know what
the zoo will do without him. He's done so much for us, the environment
and it's a big loss,'' said Paula Kelly, a local resident and volunteer
at the zoo, after dropping off a wreath at the
gate.<br><br>Stainton said Irwin's American-born wife
Terri, from Eugene, Ore., had been informed of his death, and had told
their daughter Bindi Sue, 8, and son Bob, who will turn 3 in
December.<br><br>The couple met when she went on vacation
in Australia in 1991 and visited Irwin's Australia Zoo; they were
married six months later. Sometimes referred to as the ''Crocodile
Huntress,'' she costarred on her husband's television show and in his
2002 movie.<br><br>------<br><br>On the
Net:<br><br>http://www.crocodilehunter.com